Responsibility. Money. And doing what needs to be done.

since the beginning of last month, I've been a paid, working, intern for my church. I work with the youth, as a leader, I also work around the church in general. Doing odd jobs. The only real difference between what I do now, and what i did before, is that i'm more involved in planning Fusion, I get paid, and i show up earlier.

The other night, on Sunday, people were kneeling down at the altar and praying, then today, a woman came in asking about "the lady for the food". She was looking for Sarah and the compassion closet (a closet of necessities for people in need). Sarah wasn't around, so the receptionist just sent her to the ministry center.
I realized, upon listening to the woman ask me about Sarah and the compassion closet, as well as seeing the people at the altar, that it's my job to help these people, even if i'm just a youth leader. I led the woman to the compassion closet myself, turned on the light for her, grabbed her a bag, and told her to grab whatever she needed. Then, I turned around and dared everyone to give her a dirty look, no one did. Ciara prayed for her (she's more like that, i just set people up), and we sent her on her way with a smile.
Back to the people praying, I ended up praying for everyone there, awkwardly a bit.

That's why I work, that's what I'm supposed to be doing. I don't necessarily like going up in front of a church and praying for others, nor do I particularly enjoy helping random women that i don't know.
What i do like, is loving people, and thus, I do what God tells me needs to be done in order to make them feel loved.

I have no idea where I'm going with any of this. it's almost 1AM and I'm bum tired from an awesome day.

The fact of the matter is. I like loving people. In a nice way.. not like. romantically.. much. anyway.

I'm reading this cool book called "the same stuff as stars" it's boring and i like it.

This guy came to visit Fusion, and was being an annoying pest. He came from Big Bear, and was acting like he was better then us LB kids, he even started trying to act all "gangster". Whatever dude. Go back to big bear and take your ego with you.

Fusion was awesome. Both Jess and Ian were there, we had amazing water wars, I soaked everyone, including Jess and Ian. With water balloons, and my water gun, which i accidentally forgot there.

- Im tired, and i wont sleep.

- Ernie