To think or not to think.

In the past i have expanded on many thoughts, love, beauty, nature, fear of the dark. I expand and think them over and over, finding meaning in the simplest of things, I dissect them and turn them over in my mind. I can do this with just about anything, but, after a while, you lose what those things really are. You think them over so much that they become whatever you imagine them to be. Much like a magic trick after you've learned the secret, it becomes dull and less vibrant. Sometimes I'll find myself just looking at something, not thinking about how people spend their lives missing the beauty of it, or how it's so small yet so important. I just look at it, and take it for what it is, not what it means, I see the beauty of it for what it is, in this moment of space and time.
I think that it's good to think about things, but not to a point to where you dissect every little detail of something. I try to take things for what they are, taking amusement in the little things in life, trying to find some new way to view something. A new angle perhaps, through a certain material. I find pleasure in standing at the base of a tree looking up at it, or hanging upside down to look at something.
Sometimes when we over analyze something we miss it for what it really is, a tree, a flower, we find different ways to symbolize something that doesn't need symbolizing. I would find myself watching a movie, dissecting it, trying to find the meaning behind it when in reality it was there, don't dissect the movie, enjoy the movie for what it is.
I tend to put a lot of thought into small things, not very important but they're always there. I learned this one day from my art teacher as we were eating lunch, we sat in silence eating our sandwiches (odd name for food), I sat there, contemplating my final bite. A question arose into my mind (if I have an annoying question I'll ask it) I thought to myself "why is it that i come across these last bites, they're too small to take two bites, yet, too big to take it whole". I thought about this, then, i asked Jon, I was sure that his vast expanse of wisdom could help me with my question. "do you ever have that last bite that's too big to take whole but still to small to put into two bites?" There was a pause of contemplation... Jon chuckled at me and simply replied "you seem to put a lot more thought into these kinda things than i do". I stuffed the bite into my mouth.
That's when i came to the realization that I do put a lot more thought into things then other people do, I set out to stop thinking. Now when i come across something beautiful, say a piece of art, i stop thinking about the artist and the emotions and simply let the artwork explain itself to me, instead of me trying to explain the artwork.

-Ernie

find pleasure in the small things.